What a sucky start...

So last week my best friend and I sat down and made up an exercise routine to do with the Wii that we were supposed to start Monday (2 days ago). Well it hasn't worked out for me. Over the weekend Mother Nature paid me a visit and when she comes I hurt bad. Not to mention I am freakin sick...Very deep cough, hope it's not pneumonia. I haven't even started exercising yet. But she's sick too and hasn't done much either so hopefully we can get to feeling better and start fresh  next Monday....

My struggle with my weight

I have been struggling with my weight for some time now. All through high school I was 220 lbs. Then at 20 I got pregnant with my daughter and gained 60 lbs. that I did not lose at all. Then 2 1/2 years later at 280 lbs. I found out I was pregnant with my son and gained another 20 lbs. that too unfortunately has not gone away. So today another 2 1/2 years later I am at an extremely unhappy 300 lbs.

I  am active with my kids, I have no problems with chasing after them or playing with them. I just want to be healthy. I have heart problems and high blood pressure and I want to be around to see my babies grow up. I want to be around to hold my grandkids many many long years down the road.

I want to take my kids to an Amusement Park or Fair and not have to worry if I will fit on the ride or not. I don't want them to be ashamed of their fat mom. My daughter is 4 years old and it melts my heart when she tells me how beautiful or gorgeous I am, but what will she tell her friends 10 years from now? I just want be here for my babies....